My poor boy has been having a rough time lately. He is teething, his molars are coming in so he is in constant pain :( I feel so bad for him. He won't even let me give him medicine half the time, and it takes reading the same exact books to him over and over to get him to stop screaming. He loves his Dizzy Dragon book and the Foot Book lately. He hasn't been sleeping very well lately, and has been waking up WAY earlier than necessary. His good moods are great, and his bad moods are horrible. Even with my full attention on him, doing everything I can to distract him and keep him busy sometimes there's just no satisfying him. I feel so bad :( Hopefully this will pass soon.
Since he wakes up so early now, lately we have been going to the park a couple mornings a week before I take him to daycare. We just have a loaf of bread in the car at all times lol he LOVES feeding the ducks. As soon as we get out of the car he is already saying, "DUCK! DUCK!" He is definitley starting to speak more, and he doesnt need to be provoked. There aren't TOO many words he says regularly, but he says ball and book a lot now, without me having to say it to him first. Oh, and Daddy. I taught him to say Daddy instead of Dada and now he's obsessed. He points to my computer and says daddy, or picks up my phone and says it lol
This is going to be a very busy and stressful semester. I'm wondering how exactly I'm going to do it all. Especially now that Kieran is so needy and goes to bed an hour or so later than he used to, I have much less time to do homework and study. We'll see how it goes... If I really have to I'll ask my boss if I can work a few hours less a week, but I don't want to have to do that. We are barely making it by as it is.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Saying goodbye
To our first home.
This is the first time I have had an emotional connection to a house. I am so sad to say goodbye to it. I have so many amazing memories here. I remember sitting on the glider for probably half of my day, breastfeeding kieran and just staring into his sweet little face. I remember making his home made baby food and having so much trial and error to get it the right taste and texture. I remember cuddling with Kieran in bed and waking up to him squeezing my nose and giggling every morning. I remember him zooming around in his walker and getting air in his jumper. The first night he slept in his own room and his own bed... The first time he bathed in the big tub as opposed to his little baby tub... I remember when he just started smiling and cooing and laughing and mimicking all my sounds and I would sit there for hours on end just playing with him and making faces. I remember when he first learned to roll over and within a few days was practically rolling from room to room and giggling his little butt off. The first time he crawled, and we caught it on video... When he took his first steps... First said Mama and Dada.... Learning sign language and eating finger foods... Playing tee-ball and swimming in his pool in the back yard... Evenings on the back porch swing sharing popsicles... *sigh* I learned to be a mom here. But like a good friend told me today, I should think of it like that job you loved and made you who you are, but you had to give up to move on to bigger and better things. This is exactly like that. I feel like I not only got to know Kieran here, but I got to know myself as well. We have both taught each other so much in this house, but I know we have a lot left to learn. I can't believe this is my last night in this house. I almost cried when I put Kieran to bed for the last time in our first house. I know I will cry when I lock the door behind me for the last time.
I will miss you, house!!!
<3
This is the first time I have had an emotional connection to a house. I am so sad to say goodbye to it. I have so many amazing memories here. I remember sitting on the glider for probably half of my day, breastfeeding kieran and just staring into his sweet little face. I remember making his home made baby food and having so much trial and error to get it the right taste and texture. I remember cuddling with Kieran in bed and waking up to him squeezing my nose and giggling every morning. I remember him zooming around in his walker and getting air in his jumper. The first night he slept in his own room and his own bed... The first time he bathed in the big tub as opposed to his little baby tub... I remember when he just started smiling and cooing and laughing and mimicking all my sounds and I would sit there for hours on end just playing with him and making faces. I remember when he first learned to roll over and within a few days was practically rolling from room to room and giggling his little butt off. The first time he crawled, and we caught it on video... When he took his first steps... First said Mama and Dada.... Learning sign language and eating finger foods... Playing tee-ball and swimming in his pool in the back yard... Evenings on the back porch swing sharing popsicles... *sigh* I learned to be a mom here. But like a good friend told me today, I should think of it like that job you loved and made you who you are, but you had to give up to move on to bigger and better things. This is exactly like that. I feel like I not only got to know Kieran here, but I got to know myself as well. We have both taught each other so much in this house, but I know we have a lot left to learn. I can't believe this is my last night in this house. I almost cried when I put Kieran to bed for the last time in our first house. I know I will cry when I lock the door behind me for the last time.
I will miss you, house!!!
<3
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Honestly...
Regardless of everything life has thrown at me lately, I feel like I have more confidence in myself and the direction my life is going, than I ever have before. I feel great about my body, I feel great about my parenting skills, I feel great about school and work. Even at the end of bad days I am still able to hold my head high at the end of the day.
Kieran is growing to be quite the little genius. When he's ready to leave, like to go home from someone else's house, he walks to the door and waves, pointing at the door. And today his daycare teacher told me he likes to bring her things from around the room and make her tell him what it is, then he'll go get something else and hold it out for her to tell him the name of it. I love him so much! He doesn't speak much yet, but he is excellent at letting me know what he needs. He is such a smart, sweet little boy. I feel so lucky to have him. I love having a hand in his life. I know he is going to grow into such a great man, just like his daddy. I can only hope that Kieran will acheive this due to a happy, healthy upbringing in a household full of love, rather than out of misfortune and being dealt a bad hand more days than not. I can promise you, Kieran, that I will do everything in my power to make sure you grow up to be a happy, loving, respectful and caring person. It's amazing how a boy so small can have a heart and imagination so big. <3 <3 <3
Kieran is growing to be quite the little genius. When he's ready to leave, like to go home from someone else's house, he walks to the door and waves, pointing at the door. And today his daycare teacher told me he likes to bring her things from around the room and make her tell him what it is, then he'll go get something else and hold it out for her to tell him the name of it. I love him so much! He doesn't speak much yet, but he is excellent at letting me know what he needs. He is such a smart, sweet little boy. I feel so lucky to have him. I love having a hand in his life. I know he is going to grow into such a great man, just like his daddy. I can only hope that Kieran will acheive this due to a happy, healthy upbringing in a household full of love, rather than out of misfortune and being dealt a bad hand more days than not. I can promise you, Kieran, that I will do everything in my power to make sure you grow up to be a happy, loving, respectful and caring person. It's amazing how a boy so small can have a heart and imagination so big. <3 <3 <3
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I have a good life.
I have officially decided on the job that I WANT to do for the rest of my life. I want to be a lactation consultant. I totally had an epiphany and realized that this is the job I am MEANT to do! I'm even more excited for the fall semester now. Kieran is brilliant as usual, and I'm so excited to move this weekend and get settled into our new home. I'm not nearly ready though, still have lots to pack and get ready. But I'm so excited for this fresh start, and I can't wait to meet tons of new people this semester. I've been getting back into painting lately and it's been very theraputic. I used to do it all the time, and I haven't done it once since I had kieran. I definitely think it's time I get back into it.
My life is a good one. I'm one of the lucky ones.
My life is a good one. I'm one of the lucky ones.
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